Between Languages Between Worlds

A personal essay about how reading and writing in many languages have shaped the person and writer I am today.

Someplace Between Respect and Desire

My confusion and alarm soon turned to fear. I felt with every cell on my skin my disadvantaged situation: I was the woman and he was the man, I was Asian and he was white, I was just another local girl and he was the dashing coveted foreigner, I was younger, less experienced, less beautiful, and I probably liked him much more than he liked me.

Firdaus dari Kardus

Aku tak habis pikir mengapa orangtuaku ingin memasukkanku ke sekolah Islam. Kami salat dan pergi ke masjid untuk mengaji, tapi Islam hanyalah salah satu dari banyak sendi kehidupan keluarga kami. Aku curiga keputusan Mama itu lebih berkaitan dengan keprihatinannya akan tindak “kenakalan remaja” yang makin lama makin sering diberitakan di televisi dan koran.

From Now on Everything will be Different (excerpt)

How was it possible that these people, after three decades of silence and obedience and fear, now found the courage to protest? These people were so used to submitting to fate. How had they decided that they could break the course of History? The protests impressed him profoundly as the first confirmation that one could indeed bring about change. He would never forget how, along with the sound of thousands of students marching, he had heard God lovingly whisper in his ear, ‘You too can change your life’s course.’

Di Antara Bahasa-bahasa dan Dunia-dunia

Aku ingin karyaku turut memajukan kisah inovasi lintas benua dan lintas zaman, aku ingin menciptakan diriku dari apa pun yang kuyakini dapat mendekatkanku ke sebaik-baik Eliza Vitri Handayani.

Puncak

Banyak orang menjelang Ramadan dengan memperbanyak salat dan doa. Lain dengan Ferdian, Risa, dkk. Mereka mempersiapkan diri dengan melampiaskan nafsu berpesta, mabuk, dan teler habis-habisan supaya kuat puasa hura-hura selama sebulan. Keseruan pesta mereka terusik ketika Lani – pacar Patar yang merupakan ‘cewek baik-baik’ dan memiliki ayah soerang polisi – memaksa ingin bergabung.

Us + Them

She eyed the sweaty strangers around them, tearing off pieces of flesh, crunching into crackers, red sauce dripping from their fingers. Every now and then a lone grain of rice or shred of onion would cling to the corner of their lips, like a lonely outcast or scapegoat, only to be obliterated with a swipe of their greasy hands.